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| I'm tired. You know that feeling of vague discontent that you can't quite seem to shake off. That's how I'm feeling right now. I'm not really happy with where I am in life currently, don't want quite the same things that I used to, and can't seem to think of anything to strive for now that would make me happy. Granted, it might be that where God wants me to be right now is unhappy. It disturbs me though because this same feeling of wanting to be somewhere else or having a different life has been plaguing me for years now. It seems like there's something wrong with every road. Perhaps it's more realistic, but I don't like the idea that I will have to go through life without ever being completely content with who and where I am. I am all for growing and developing as a person, but the possibility of living a life of constantly striving but never quite reaching is daunting to me. It takes a lot of energy to stretch yourself, and I'm afraid I'm going to run out before it's my time to go. There's not much choice but to just keep going though, so I guess that's the plan. I just need to trust God knows what He's doing. I may feel like I'm spinning in circles, but He just may be spinning me down a path that I'm too dizzy to see.
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| AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I HATE SCHOOL! 
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| soooooooo tired. got home from school today and knocked out for 2.5 hours. you know you're tired when you're falling asleep standing up in lab over a cadaver.  i still feel in an odd waking form of sleep, but hopefully it goes away soon because i need to study. anatomy midterm next week, and i am not ready. 10 billion things to stuff in my brain still, and things already keep falling back out. 
on a happier note, my sister-in-law's water broke yesterday, so they induced the birth today. i think i'm an auntie now!  hooray! they hadn't decided on a name yet, but i'm guessing they're going to have to just pick one now if they want to leave the hospital. more updates later.
have a great weekend!
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